Shepherd of my Heart

Dance mania

2008-01-31T06:48:00.000-08:00

Went to Vivo with lao gong today and "stumbled upon" a group of china dance troupe performing traditional cinese tribal dances!!! It was so beautiful except for a few mistakes (think they will get a very good lashing from their dance instructors after the performance has ended). I was so enticed by it that I wanted to dance on the spot!!! HAHA. Now lao gong finally knows what kind of dances I like. She even said she can imagine me dancing traditional dances, instead of hip hop. HAHA. Which is quite true, I also cannot really picture myself doing hip hop, despite having attended dance mtv mix class last year. I always almost burst out laughing when I look at myself in the mirror because the dance room was all mirrors!! I was so super small size, and so skinny and with so long long long hair, that I look more like dancing either indian or chinese traditional dance, rather than dancing hip hop and jazz!!! So in the end, I seriously think it was a skeleton dancing hip hop and jazz!!!!! I seriously want to learn dancing. I was all set to learn dancing in a proper dancing school after graduating from jc, but Singapore did not offer any dance courses that really cater to my interests. At that point of time, I wanted to go to China and learn dancing, or India, but end up, in NUS. Sian. Haiz.

Lao gong and me were chatting when I asked her what would she like to be if she's born in ancient korea? She said rich man's daughter. My answer is totally opposite from her, and perhaps most of you would be shocked at my answer. I want to be a courtesan (gisaeng) in ancient korea. Because in Korea, only a gisaeng is able to learn arts, as in literature, calligraphy, music and dance. And I would trade anything and give up anything just to learn dancing, even till now. But if in ancient China, I would want to be a rich man's daughter, preferably a high ranking officer's daughter. Because I also get to learn all the arts and music and maybe dancing too (behind the back of my father, hahaha, Perhaps I might sneak into a brothel or dancing school to learn from the courtesans or dance instructors). But in Japan, I would rather be a peasant girl. In this case, I would not want to be a geisha because I don't like Japanese dancing. And if born into a rich man's family, girls are treated like goods and "sold or married off" to other noble family which I never like. Unlike Chinese dance, all other traditional dance are quite restricted in their movements and styles and costumes. India, the main costume is the sari, change here and there, still the same old thing. Japan nothing to change. Korea, although can change and alter their costumes but still same piece of hanbok. But Chinese dance on the other hand, is super flexible and it has many types because of the various tribal groups in China. And their costumes are so aplenty!!!! 简直是舞和服装包罗万象！！！That's why I love Chinese dance. But I doubt I am able to make my wish come true.

aaja nachle-from aaja nachle

2008-01-31T06:45:00.001-08:00

This is new movie by one of my faourite bollywood actress- Madhuri Dixit!!! She's the bollywood queen. This is her first movie after she left the movie industry to get married and now she has two kids!! I am trying to learn this dance now (all by myself, sian.)

天上有上帝

2008-01-27T20:47:00.000-08:00

I have been humming this song for the past few days. It is from the movie "House of Flying Daggers", starring Zhang Ziyi, Andy Lau and Jin Chen Wu. This song is so nice and meaning and is so true for the ancient times. It is performed by Zhang Ziyi. Below is the lyrics. I did the tranlsation on my own, it may not be very good, but at least the meaning is there,

北方有佳人 (There's a beauty in the north)
绝世而独立 (She's not only extremely beautiful but also independent)
一顾倾人城 (One look at her, you will offer your city)
再顾倾人国 (Another look at her, you will offer your whole country)
宁不知，倾城与倾国 (Without realising, you offer both your city and country)
佳人难在得 (It is difficult to keep a beauty by your side)

In the past, even up till now, guys are always captivated by beauties. They will do anything either to get her or just to catch a glimpse of her or to please her. Hence, you will either offer your city or country. And in real life examples, Emperor Tang XuanZong had to put his favourite concubine to death for the sake fo saving his country. And another emperor from the Zhou dynasty lost his whole country within one night. In order to make his favourite concubine smile at all cost, the emperor tricked all his subjects and military generals that the country was in danger. Thus, to have the company of a beauty is good, but it is diffcult to keep her and please her. There are still many examples lah. That's why in chinese, there is this idiom--红颜祸水。I personally think it is rubbish because it is the guys' fault!! Not we girls!! And they actually all the blame on girls when they lost their country or money. And to label my extremely beautiful and non comparable ancestor lady Yang as an evil concubine really makes my blood boil!!! But now I changed the lyrics into one that worships God. HEHE

天上有上帝 (There's a God in the heaven)
绝世而独立 (He's not only extremely beautiful but also independent)
一顾得解脱 (One look at Him, you will be freed from the chain of sins)
再顾得永生 (Another look at Him, you will gain eternity)
宁不知，解脱与永生的生命 (Without realising, you will gain both freedom and eternal life)
上帝难在得 (It is difficult to keep God by your side)

I maintained the second verse because God is definitely beautiful and shiny that no one is comparable to Him. And God is definitely independent because there is only one God and He did everything by Himself. Just by looking at God, it is said that one will trembles because He is too bright (even brighter than the sun) and the sight of Him might blind our eyes. However, it actually dawn upon us that He is able to free us from the chains of sins. Another look at Him, we will obey and do whatever He commands, than we will be able to enjoy an eternal life with me as well. Thus, soon we will enjoy the benefits of both without us realising it. However, it is easy to know God but very tough to embark on His righteous path because it takes alot of courage and determination to walk in His ways. Therefore, it is diffcult to follow or keep God's ways.

Happy 21st bday... :P

2008-01-26T23:39:00.000-08:00

Just attended my friend's 21st bday party not long ago. I was so relunctant to go because I only met her a few times when both of us did Relief Teaching in KSS, and we went out once only. That was all back in year 2006!!! Although she will sent me cute and funny sms lah. But that was all. So when she invited me, it is not nice to reject mah. So got another difficult task, what present to get for her??? I started praying to God for help. And ended up buying Royce chocolates for her. Then I prayed to God for help again because I will be all alone at her bday party. I told God to accompany me, but God said NO!!!! That was irritating lor!! At the time when I needed someone to be by my side, He told me NO!!! MAD!!! So I told God, ok lor, then you send someone to chat with me lah, if not I will be so 可怜 lor. Then if the person is a Christian, all the more the better. At least got a common topic to talk about. And His reply was "Don't worry."

So when I reached the bday girl's house, I ate alone and was all alone lor!! Then just as I was about to sit down and rest, a familiar girl was right in front of me!!! Ane she was from my chinese business modules last semester, we were in the same tutorial and we chatted only twice, altogether less than 10 sentences!! But the bday girl was from NTU, they knew each other through chinese lesson back in jc. And later, I realised that the girl was also a Christian!!!! Wohoo!! No wonder God said He is not going to accompany me lah, because I will be busy making friend with this girl!!! HAHAHA. Thank God. And the bday girl sms me and told me she love the choclate!! YEA!!!

So I am happy now!!!

Busy x1000000 timessss......

2008-01-26T23:10:00.000-08:00

Lao gong has been complaining that I never update my blog for a long long long time. Well, it is because I hate blogging and things that are similar to writing a diary!!! So troublesome.

But anyway, this semester has started and I'm really really extremely busy. I will not be at home everyday!!! Tuesday, wednesday, thursday are schooling days--so little girl needs to go school and study and be agood little girl. Monday, wednesday, friday, saturday and sunday are tution days--so little girl need to transform into a fierce and strict teacher, so she will be able to handle 3 kids, one of which is my beautiful mixed-blood neice!!! So, you can see, my super packed schedule and I'm really tired. It is not just plain tired but extremely extremely tired.

But the sight of my little niece makes me happy because she is so cute. Although she is just 5 years old, but I think she is very smart for her age. Except her chinese makes me want to 吐血！！！ So lousy!! And she will frown and sthink very long when I asked her chinese or some tough questions. HAHAH. But I will make sure she will be the no 1 or at least one of the best students in her class for all subjects!!! HAHA. My niece attends a christian kindergarden, so she knows her bible stuff quite well for kids her age. She is always the no 1 in her class for doing well in her bible stuff and memorising and reciitn gof bible verses!!! So, halfway during tutiton, when she was writing "t w o", she told me "t" looks like a cross. Below is our conversation, although it is mostly one sided lah.

Niece: "You know this "t" looks like a cross? Jesus died on a cross. God (Jesus) lives on a cross. He makes the earth, the sky, my nose, my eyes, my lips, makes me, makes so many thing, you know ornot."

Me (looking shocked and stunned at her sudden answer and change of topic): "Oh, I see. Who teach you all these? Your teacher?"

Niece: "Yup."

Me: "I see. But Jesus does not live on a cross, He died on the cross." (Then my niece nod her head and said "yup").

Me: "Do you love Jesus? Do you know if God loves you??"

Niece: "Yup, I love Jesus, and God loves me. I sing a Jesus song for you. Very nice one. Jesus makes ........ me me me me. Jesus.... you you you."

And there she was singing for me, although I can't really make out what she was singing about because sometimes it is difficult to fully understand what a child is talking. Below is another conversation regarding Jesus again. This time I was teaching her to read and recognise the word "SEA". Then she looked at the picture which is "SEA" and said:

Niece: "You know Jesus makes the sea also? I can swim inside and won't die because Jesus is there with me and He won't make me die. Need to wear the the the the swim swim thing (she couldn't describe what is the equipment so I guess it must be the scuba diving equipment) on your head, then you dive inside, but you won't die because Jesus won't let you die."

Me (Again got taken aback by her sudden digressing of topic, I still don't understand why she can relate sea to Jesus won't let you die): "Oh!!! Ya lor. Ok, how to read the next word."

HAHAHA, cute right, my little niece!!! I was telling my cousin about this on friay when we met up, and my cousin said she (my niece) know's more than me!!! But I was quite afraid that her mother which is my cousin would know about this thing lah, cos later she thought I preached to my niece. The thing is, it was my niece who started it!!! HEHE

But of course, I prayed that my niece will be smart and obedient and pretty and holy in God's eyes lah. Will be seeing her tomorrow again!! Yea!!

焕然一新

2008-01-13T19:57:00.000-08:00

I spent the entire afternoon packing my room yesterday!! Because the super "jie pi" me prefers to get dirty all at one go, instead of packing it weekly or everyday which will make me dirty everyday!! HAHA. I shifted the position of my books and files, and replaced the original place with my bears and decorations ornaments and my trohpies!!! Wohoo!! Looking back, I think I should have joined more sports competition and get more trophies (cos confirmed will get trophy 1, hehe)!!!! I hang my cross stitich again, but haven't drill 7 holes yet!! So I used those previous nails to support my cross stitich. Asked my dad to get his workers to redrill 7 holes, and he said must wait until I finished my other 2 cross stitich 1st!!!! But that will take me another 1-3 years!!! Because one of them is a very very very big and long and complicated peacock cross stitch!!!! It resembles that of a chinese painting!! So, can you imagine how tough it would be to finish that peacock cross stitch???!!!

And I was telling my mum maybe after my peacock, I will buy a $100 plus plus 百花齐放 or 富贵华开 picture to do!!! It was another type of cross stitch that resembles another chinese painting and this is even longer, and bigger and more complicated~~~ HAHA. But have to depend on my mood lah.

Now I got a "new" room with a very "new" look and "new" furnitures and "new" feeling. Cool

Pissed off.... by lao gong

2008-01-13T19:54:00.000-08:00

I was so super pissed off at my piggypig lao gong lah!!! We were chatting on msn just now and she told me they celebrated my "Prince Charming's" birthday!!! And she never even tell me a single thing about the celebration!!! What is worse is that she knows that guy is my "Prince Charming"!!! PIG!!! Super pissed off!! Where in the world did I get myself such a bad lao gong???!!! I just can't figure it out.

Kushibo trip

2008-01-09T04:17:00.000-08:00

Finally went to Kushibo with mei mei today. HAHA. Was quite relunctant to go cos it is a male!!! So I asked God and He said can go. But I was still abit nervous because it is so funny to go out with a male. And I am not sure why God said can go or if I heard wrongly, so I asked God for a sign. I told Him if He really wants me to go, then mei mei will either msg me via msn or sms on monday or tuesday, asking when I want to go to kushibo. And true enough, mei mei msg me on monday, but he never really asked when we will go, because I was sick and just receovered. But on tuesday, he msg me and asked when we shall go!!! I was telling God "God, you are so cute lor!!! HAHA!!"

So today went to kushibo with mei mei lah. That pig came out late, but I was smarter, I came out even later. HAHA. Starting both of us were very quiet, I just pretended that no one was beside me. Mei mei even asked me why I'm so quiet, and I replied, then what do you want me to say?? On the mrt, we kept quite for about 10 mins, then we talked. During this awkward moments, I msg lao gong and told her to pray for me and to keep myself occupied. And stupid mei mei also took out his hp when he realised that I just don't want to talk to him!! But in the end, we did talk.

When we reached Kusihibo for buffet, mei mei was so cute!! He asked me to go and take my food 1st, while he stayed to take care of my bag, I said no need (cos I know my God will take care of it for me, he always does!!!)but he insisted!! And so, I took all the food that I like and went back to seat. Mei mei was still there guarding my bag!!! Before that, he went to take his ice green tea lah. So when I'm back, he asked me what I wanted and he get ice green tea for me too. After that we ate our food silently for the 1st 10 mins, and chit chat again. HAHA
Mei mei is really a gentleman cos he kept on take cha soba, refill my drink (in which he mixed up both our cups!!!), chawamushi. spoon and tenpanki(chicken and fish) for me!!! We chat alot lah, but about general stuff. In the end, he said I really eat alot!!! HAHA. much more than his female friends. Then we went to foot the bill, but it was mei mei who payed for the meal!! $58.38!!!! I wanted to pay him back but he kept on refused!!! I was abit irritated lah, cos I never like the idea of guy paying anything for me!!!

After that we went to buy royce chocolates cos I was craving for it. I bought two packets of royce choclates, then the saleperson said buy 3 get 1 free, I said no. But the cute mei mei said might as well just take 3 cos get 1 free, I told him I took a very long time to finish a box of chocolates, and he said he will get the 3rd one and pay for it. This time, mei mei wanted to pay again, but I was nearer to the counter and thus beat him to it!! so I paid $38.40 for 4 packet of chocolates. And I refused to take the money from mei mei, I told him I still own him money, but he kept on refused to accept from me. Sian.

Later, we shopped for awhile cos I need to buy birthday presents for 2 people. I was surprised that mei mei followed me into the precious moments shop, cos I had expected him to stay outside. Then we went back, I went home, he went for his 'tui na' session. He was so cute!! He at 1st said he will escort me to the mrt, cos he wanna take bus to the 'tui na' shop. Then he went to find a bus for me, but no bus. So, both of us took the mrt in the end. HAHA. Funny mei mei.

At 1st I thought things would not go smoothly, but I prayed and God said He will help me, so I just surrender everything into GOd's hands. Thnak GOd everything was fine lah. Both of us managed to talk in the end, and was quite comfortable lah. HAHA

Sick again..... :(

2008-01-02T05:22:00.000-08:00

Haiz, here I am, sick again. Down with sore throat since saturday but I ate strepsils and the pain was no longer there. But had a super duper very bad running nose yesterday night till today morning. So I went to see the doctor. Haiz, and I was supposed to meet myjc friend tomorrow, wonder if I am able to make it. I mean I just feel giddy because of the medicine. Then friday got another lunch date with mei mei at kushibo!! Just when I was so happy about eating all those yummy food, I'm sick!!! What a wet blanket!! And that irritating weight of mine remains at 39kg, sometimes at 40kg, but still no progress have been made so far.

Last semester was definitely a very chaotic and packed and tramautic schedule for me. My ever once giant appetitie is gone officially--thanks to God. I think HE thinks I eat too much and feels the need to contol my diet. So now I eat very little, but maybe still alot than some of my friends. HAHA. I can forsee that this coming semester will be avery busy one as well.....

Don't lose hope

2007-12-27T22:26:00.000-08:00

Haiz, it's been about a year since I last step into a church. I had thought of giving up and live the life like I used to. Instead of waiting aimlessly and suffering for HIS sake. Cried alot and think alot, this feeling of "so near yet so far" is killing me and taking its toll on me. Just when I was feeling so vexed and lost, the voice that I haven't heard for such a long time speaks again. This time it was through a drama series: Hwang jin yi. I was watching hwang jin yi, when suddenly the male lead said this to the female lead "If fate is with us, I will go to you. And I will create a path for you to come to me. So until then, don't lose hope." This phrase had a great impact on me and immediately I started to tear abit, God was telling me not to give up and lose hope personally. Another sentence appeared "If the world fights with you, then you have to fight against it. If the world ask you to cry and suffer in pain, thne you should suffer and cry in pain. Because after all this, will be a reward." In this case, the reward is the eternal life that we will be receiving from God, Heaven. No doubt I have indeed suffered alot for HIS sake-pain, tears, humiliation... All I have endured, and come thus far, am I going to quit now?

The answer is a definite no. I am not gonna back down nor get defeated by all this mere worldly things. If I do, I am not Yang Rongluan. Furthermore, God took the initiative to speak to em personally and so gently, how can I let HIM down? Haiz, so I have to endure and persevere until the end.

To the person that is confused right now and wanted to give up, please don't. You have come so far and achieved so much, don't let the devil upsets the relationship between you and God. Pray and pray n pray, God will speak to you again without you knowing it. Remember that God wants to speak to all of us more than we want to speak to HIM. HE is the King of Kings, Lord of Lords and God of Gods. He is the father, the son and the holy spirit, so HE will guide us through and replenish our faith in HIM.

I pray that God will remove the confusion in you and guide you in HIS righteous path. I pray that you will hold on to HIM till eternity and serve the only God. I pray that God will give you strength to overcome all this obstacles and I pray that your faith will be stronger than ever and learn to trust in HIM completely. You have seen HIS miracles done on you and me and for our cell group members. So don't give up easily. In Jesus name, I pray Amen.

Retail and makan therapy

2007-12-27T22:22:00.000-08:00

It's been a long long time since I have blog, but anyway, I have been slacking since exam is over. Shopping, spa, eating and watching movies and videos. Basically, the same routine throughout my entire december holidays. Had alot of fun with my friends lah. School is starting soon, and I seriously don't feel like studying because it is such a tedious process. I think human life is abit dull, spent half of the entire lifespan on studying nonstop and another half on working. Haiz, what a broing life. But luckily, there's shopping and food ot spice up one's life. :P

I miss them....:(((

2007-11-29T17:59:00.000-08:00

My SEA tutorial group is so cute!!! And the 3 caucasians guys are super cute!!! Expecially my group mate : Wouter Stefan Drinkwaard!!! He's so cute, like ratatouille rat and stuart little!! HAHAA. But He's so handsome and so charming and so smart!!! Oh, and he's super tall!!! But br said he's not that handsome!! TAO REN YAN!!!

And I'm also gonna miss Morgan, aka Mr Moses!!! HAHA, I gave him this nickname cos of his hair!!! So curly and cute and haha, typical Moses!!!

And Jacob is the guy I will miss most and can't stop laughing!!! HAHA. Br and me called him Jacob niang!! He so 姑娘, and his actions made me laugh non stop!! He's more cute than wouter lah!!! HAHA

And I will miss my SEA lecturer and his monotone voice!! HAHA, br always fall alseep in his lectures!! "bad'" gal!!! He's good and patient but abit draggy and too responsible liao.

And I will also miss HY 2206 lecturer!! So cute and funny. He's a nice nice professor, br said he's a Mr nice guy!!! HAHA

And lao gong very funny, although she did not take CL 2280, she said she like my professor!! And she called him Mr Alien!!!! HAHA. Both lecturers are funny lah, very humourous.

And my CH 2271 professors!! Always give so many hw and tests, made me so scared!! But cute.

And all the various SA lecturers!!! I miss all the videos and jokes and story.

And of course, all my group mates whom I have encountered for projects and research papers.
SEA group mates: my cute cute and charming wouter, my "bad bad" lao gong-br and me!!!
SA group mates: the big big group, and the small small group which again included my lao gong and me, HEHE
HY 2206 group mates: Sun Shuang, Geraldine, Rou Fang and me!!! And I was the oldest over there!! Haiz
CH 2271 business group mates: De ming, Yun Dan, Xin Yi, me (our group got the 最佳默契奖,最佳演义奖--de ming :)))，最佳经理人奖--me!! :)))　). And fiona and ming jie for the research paper.
CL2280 group mates: jia min, yuan lin, zhen li, tuan hee and me.

唯一

2007-11-29T07:53:00.000-08:00

I composed this chinese lyrics for God using the song from "The stand" last sunday while I was on my way for dancing lesson. I entitled it "唯一"。Maybe you all think it's lousy, but I don't care, because this is for my God and I think He will like it. HAHA. Because God loves it when we sing songs to praise him. So this is the lyric.

唯一

万物未生您已存在
您掌握永恒的钥匙
这个地球由您来铸造
我的灵魂见证

您见到我的失败
却依然扛起十字架
我的罪孽以落到您肩膀
我的灵魂见证

这该从何说起
我又该做什么
唯有将心全献给了您
我的唯一上帝

所以我接受您恩赐
您的圣灵将伴我左右
今生只为了您的承诺
我的灵魂见证

这该从何说起
我又该做什么
唯有将心全献给了您
我的唯一上帝 (X 2)

立正
我的双手高举着
崇拜我那尊贵的上帝
立正
我的灵魂全献给您
我所有是您 (X 5)

这该从何说起
我又该做什么
唯有将心全献给了您
我的唯一上帝

A surprise from God

2007-11-29T07:44:00.000-08:00

Remember the part when I said I skipped my dance lesson and couldn't replace it??? Well, I missed '3' lessons, but I got excuse for 1 lesson because I had my wisdom tooth operation and couldn't exert strength. And I only had a total of 10 lessons. I went for 7, skipped 2 officially, so means I left 1 time. I prayed to God telling him I was sad and stupid for not listening to his command lah. God told me to go for lessons the other 2 times, but I was lazy and stubborn lah!! Then when I prayed, HE told me not to worry. Then to my surprise, when I asked how manyt imes I have left, they said 4 times!! Which means in the end I attended 9 lessons, instead of 8!!! HAHA, God gave me back 1 lesson despite my wilfulness!!! Thank you daddy God!!! And also thank my own father because he specially went down to take my wisdom tooth operation mc!!! (I think I should nominate my dad for 二十四孝老爸！！！) And last sunday dance lesson was fun!! ALot of newcomers and I forgot the song title liao lah!! Sian lor. But I enjoyed myself thoroughly, because I was dancing with God and actually danced it well for him!!! YEA!!! And I finally sweat and exercised!!! HAHA

Examsssss

2007-11-29T07:34:00.000-08:00

This week was so packed!!! Finally finished all those tedious exams that requires non stop writing skills!! Last week and this past few days was super busy but not stress although I was super burnt out. Procastination lor. Left translation exam which doesn't requires any studying at all because it is only dependant upon one's language capability. Both my english and chinese!!

Lao gong said my english improved alot leh!! And "mei mei" said my english is good!! HAHA. Although I've been speaking chinese since young, but the standard is so lousy!! Abit 丢人显眼！！！If my grandpa (my dad's father) is still alive, my chinese confirmed Assss and surely speak like 古人，because my ah gong is an official!!! Haiz, too bad God took him away too early lah (the grandpa that just passed away was my mum's father lah, different ah gong)!!! And I cannot afford to score badly for my chinese because I will be embrassing and smear my grandpa's reputation. aiyo, stress lah.

NVM, God told me not to be afraid for this semester exams!!! God said He will be by my side always!! Yea Yea!! So, for next tuesday exam, I have 2 treasures and 1 potent secret weapon!!! The 2 treasure are my english and chinese dictionaries (open book exam) and my language capabilities (I sincerely believed that I did at least inherit my grandpa's smart genes,albeit to a very limited and marginal extent). And of course, the most powerful weapon is my GOD!!!!! Anything I don't know, I will ask HIM!!! HEHEHE

Traumatic experiences

2007-11-29T07:15:00.000-08:00

It's been a long long time since I have visited my blog. Here's some updates, but all regarding very sad and traumatic experiences.

My grandpa passed away not long ago. I have only seen him twice, 1st in the hospital where I stayed overnight with mum to take care of him. The 2nd and last time was the day b4 he died (he was reduced to a pack of bones :((( ). Thank God for letting me seeing him for the last time, I regretted not going to see my grandpa earlier. Was too busy with school work, too many presentations and projects and research papers (ridiculous reasoning!!!). But I'm grateful because at least I have stayed the whole night to take care of grandpa which I will not do if it was the past me. He's officially gone and everyone is sad, especially my grandma. 人生如此悲惨，短暂，又那么的无可奈何，实在是怨阿！！！ I cried alot, and so did everyone, I seriously hate funnerals and hospital!!! I cried when I was in the hospital taking care of grandpa, he praised me for being filial.I couldn't reply as I was choking with tears, all I could do was smile. Haiz

Right after the funneral was over, I was down with gastric flu!!! And the whole experience was so scary. Although I'm used to vomitting (due to motion sickness), but vomitting 6 times a day was too much too bear. Whatever I ate and drank all came out--basically last monday I ate nothing. Was reduced to a pack of bones and my weight decreased dramatically from 42.2kg to 36.9kg!!! Well, now at least I'm fine, so I'm gonna go on a makan spree to make up for the lost weight. HEHE

During the funneral and illness period, got to thank my cell group and lao gong and von von for praying for me. Thank God I was not "persecuted" for not participating in the rituals and I was healed. And especially lao gong lah. We were supposed to do SEA research paper together and because of funneral and my illness which basically lasted 2 weeks altogether, she did most of the work. But lucky I found relevant resources and got contribute some lah. I did alot for SA presentation, and she did alot for SEA paper, haha, so it's a draw!!! HAHA. Thank God though, despite all these terrible and sad thing that happened, we got an A+ for the paper. As for the presenattion, our tutorial group mates said it was excellent!! Thank God too. Oh, thank you once again to xuan wen and lao gong for accompanying me to the doctor.

Lao gong saw my 憔悴ness and she said I look like a dead corspe!!! So skinny and face so black and was super weak. HAHA. Scared her to death. I just wished that everyone will be able to move forward expecially grandma and my mum and everyone else lah. And I wished that my parents would live longer, I really don't want to attend funnerals for the rest of my life. It's sad and even sad when they are not christians. I spoke to my grandpa about accepting Christ the day b4 he died, but he already couldn't talk and did not recognised us. But I believed God that he will surely hear what I said. Haiz. 奈何奈何奈何阿！！！

The Stand - Hillsong United Video

2007-11-08T00:31:00.001-08:00

this is one of the songs that I love most!! It demonstrates God's unconditional love and faithfullness towards us.

Joe - If I Was Your Man

2007-11-08T00:17:00.001-08:00

i danced this song for last week lesson!! cool man!! i learnt slow r n b

A heavenly voice...

2007-10-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

Ch 22171 professor showed us this video today (to demonstrate the impact of words in an advertisement), it was awesome!! The little boy was only 10 years old when he sang this song: Tell me why. I was dumbstruck at his heavenly voice and I was actually saying to God, "God, what a heavenly voice he has!!! If he is a Christian, I think he will serve you by singing non stop."

When I went to search for this video clip, I also found out that this boy sang many songs of praise as well, most probably he is a Christian. I finally understood what Christian (my friend) meant by anointing when singing or doing things. This little boy was definitely blessed and anointed by God with such a powerful and touching heavenly voice (HAHA, I was wondering if he will take over the worshipper angel position, just kidding lah:P), together with such an "impactful" lyrics, it left everyone in the Lecture room stunned. Even professor was prasing the little boy non-stop. Here, is the link to the song: Tell me why. I also paste one of the songs of praise.

Tell me why----- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_j6IBdHW_rY

Amazing Grace----- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=npGNKj5IxWY

Whatever You Like Remix

2007-10-21T02:36:00.001-07:00

Learnt a new dance today using Nicole Scherzinger new song--Whatever you like. HAHA. The video was sexy and hot. But the dance that I learnt is so hippy n hoppy n jumpy. I'm like a bungee bunny doing all the bungee jumping n the bungee sliding. I seriously look like a small innocent bungee bumpy bunny. Anyone got a carrot for me?.....

Chewing Gum Advertisement

2007-10-20T18:35:00.001-07:00

THis was another one of the advertisments we saw in SA 1101 E lectures. HAHA, I love this!! it's cool, innovative n fexible

Camlin Marker Funny Indian Commercial Advertisement

2007-10-20T18:32:00.001-07:00

THis advertisment are simply great and funny!!! HAHA, Professor showed it to us during our SA 1101 E lecture,n the whole lecture was filled with laughter---the indians r smart!!!

You want doughnut???

2007-10-15T03:53:00.000-07:00

Had CH2271 tutorial today, after that went for tution. Ate 2 pieces of doughnut, it was nice, but too sweet for me lah. Anyway, tht was my lunch!!! When it was time for the 2nd korean kid's (name is min ji) tution, min ji asked me "You want doughnut ornot?" I was quite shocked lah but replied "ok, thanks." Later she told me, "I told mum that maybe you haven't eat your lunch and later your stomach growl." HAHAHA, funny lah, but I was quite touched at her offer lah. Well, the previous time i growled was because I was too hungry, tuiton from morny 9am all the way to 2pm without eating anything, of cos hungry lah. Anyway, I have been torturing the both korean siblings by giving them quiz 4 times a week!!! HAHA, too bad!! cos I need to push them beyond their limits, and make sure they speak, listen and write better than they were b4 that.

A touching love story that last for eternity....

2007-10-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

山无棱，天地合，才敢与君绝---this is the verse that we will be hearing when we are watching 琼瑶's drama, eg 环珠格各。 The loving scene between the famale and male leads was just so touching that it will immediately bring tears to one's eyes. But, today I have just read a story from my daily bread again. A love that never fades, that never forsakes, that never grugdes, that never hates, a love that is so true, and awaiting so many of us, is just right at our doorstep. Perhaps, many of you may lament that there is no such thing as the love that I have just mentioned above. But, it does and truly exist!!! I refering to both God's love for us as well as the love between a couple. In this case, I tried to change the original verison of the chinese poetry verse, don't laugh ok-----即使是山无棱，天地合，绝不与君绝！！！Here's the story..... from http://www.rbc.org/odb/odb-04-09-03.shtml

He Died For Me!

If He is the King of Israel, let Him now come down from the cross, and we will believe Him. —Matthew 27:42

William and Mary Tanner were crossing the railroad tracks when it happened. Mary's foot slipped and wedged itself between the rail and the wooden crosswalk. She tried frantically to pull her foot free as the sound of an approaching train was heard. There were but seconds left as the express came rushing toward her around a curve. Will Tanner pulled on her foot, desperately trying to free her.

As the train came closer and its whistle screamed and brakes shrieked, Will held her in his arms. While people shuddered in horror, the train thundered over them. One witness said that just before the engine hit them, he heard the brave man cry, "I'll stay with you, Mary!" That is great love!

This story reminds me of our Savior, who loved us with a love that can save us (John 3:16). Death came hurtling at Him as He hung on a cross and took the full penalty we deserved. He heard people cry out to Him to save Himself and come down from the cross (Matthew 27:40). But to save others He chose not to save Himself (v.42).

With divine, sacrificial love, Jesus refused to spare His own life. He died so that He could provide forgiveness of sins for us. Our Savior stayed on the cross—for you and for me! —Mart De Haan—Mart De Haan-->
Oh, can it be, upon a treeThe Savior died for me?My soul is thrilled, my heart is filled,To think He died for me! —Newton

Oh, can it be, upon a tree

The Savior died for me?

My soul is thrilled, my heart is filled,

To think He died for me! —Newton

Nails could not have kept Jesus on the cross if His love for us had not held Him there.

The price of not listenting to God's command :(

2007-10-14T00:30:00.000-07:00

Sad sad sad. I have been skipping my dance lessons for 3 weeks lah. THe 1st and the 3rd time (which is today) were because I am super tired and lazy and I need to do my hw. The 2nd time was because of the wisdom tooth operation I had, so dentist advised me not to engaged in vigorous activites. Actually for the 1st and 3rd time, I did asked God if I should go, He said GO!!!. But hor, I was just too lazy and tired lah. I called the ppl over there and asked if they actually take into account my absence, they said yes and no replacement!! They said unless got an mc to prove lah, so I will go and get the mc 2molo, my dad said he will call the dentist and ask. I'm so sian now lor!! :((((( Anyway, I prayed liao, God said not to worry about it and also about the $ that had been wasted. Haiz, actually since the wisdom tooth operation, I can't really exert so much strenght even until now!!! My gum still hurts and it's super suan when I'm using force. Even when I just lift up my head from the bed, my gum hurts!!! ouch!!!

B4 that, I was laughing at my other Christian friend, whose name is also called Christian. He also ignored God's warning once. Christian wanted to go to this particular place to eat his breakfast, but the Holy Spirit was telling him to go elsewhere instead. Well, Christian did not heed the advice lah, so when he reached the place, it was closed!!! Thus, he wasted his time travelling there. Haiz, you see, we Chinese got one saying--don't laugh at others for the same thing will happen to you also!!! Sian, now come true liao lor.

Ok lah, next time must listen to God and not 一意孤行。一意孤行的结果是受到不必要的伤害或损失。So must be a 乖宝宝。 And now I also understand why God makes sure that all of us have parents, because they will be there for us no matter what happens and will fogive us no matter what happens. Parents are really a reflection of God relentless love and care for us--God says I will never leave you nor abandon you, I am always with you. I will be your Father and you will be my child (same for parents too). 血浓于水就是这个意思。My dad said he will settle the mc thing for me, haha. It is really a blessing to have our parents lah, as compared to oprhans, 我们实在是太幸福了. Daddy God, I thank you for blessing me with such wonderful and goody goody parents in Jesus name, Amen. :P

Comments for chinese blog assignment

2007-10-13T08:28:00.000-07:00

Just received the comments from my professor regarding my chinese blog assignment!!!
Again, thank you Daddy God for helping me out. Glory Be to God, Amen. (God told me not to worry about this assignment too!!!)
And of cos, my honey, my xin xin, ty's bro for checking and giving me their valuable comments :)))))))))). btw, xin xin, cher also said my essay is smooth flowing lor!!!!!-----cher said 有条有理 lor

The comments are as below: 我一字不漏地把老师的评语写下来 :p

容銮：

你好！你十分努力地阐述了华人应该努力学习中华文化，以及中华文化对经商的重要性，这点非常好。你的文章思路清晰，有条有理，很好！在遣词用字上，你的词语有些不合华文使用的规范，词语搭配也有一些不恰当之处，老师一一指出，如果你有什么疑问，可以找老师为你进一步解释。我想，你热爱中文、努力学中文，这一点非常可贵，但是要怎样才能学好呢？我想，还是得多看、多写，才会进步，希望你继续努力！

陈老师

The runaway bunny who couldn't really escape

2007-10-13T08:17:00.000-07:00

I just read this story from my daily bread and found it so funny but true. I will just copy n paste it here lah. Don't say I plargised, ok. I got put down the link lor..... HEHE

The link is http://www.rbc.org/odb/odb-04-01-03.shtml ---- if anyone of you have the time, can go n read, the stories are very encouraging and funny and true. God spoke to me many times from this cute stories.HEHE :P

The Runaway Bunny

Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? —Psalm 139:7

Margaret Wise Brown is known for her simple yet profound books for children. One of my favorites is The Runaway Bunny. It's about a little bunny who tells his mother he has decided to run away.

"If you run away," says his mother, "I will run after you. For you are my little bunny." She goes on to tell him that if he becomes a fish in a trout stream, she will become a fisherman and fish for him. If he becomes a little boy, she will become a human mother and catch him in her arms and hug him. No matter what the little rabbit does, his doggedly persistent, ever-pursuing mother will not give up or go away.

"Shucks," says the bunny at last, "I might as well stay where I am and be your little bunny." "Have a carrot," his mother then says.

This story reminds me of David's words in Psalm 139:7-10, "Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend into heaven, You are there; if I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there Your hand shall lead me, and Your right hand shall hold me."

Let's be thankful that God is relentless in His love for us—ever-pursuing, ever-present, and ever-guiding. —David H. Roper—David H. Roper-->

THINKING IT THROUGH

How can the truth of God's presence be a comfort in our trials?

How can it help us to avoid and overcome sin in our lives?

No matter where you go, God goes with you.

Child-like faith

2007-10-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

I saw a super cute Chinese boy on 302 today!!! He was sitting in front of me lah, felt like pinching his cheeks!!so red n cute!! But that's not my main point for this article lah.

The little boy was saying "I'm sorry, mummy." Then both the mummy and him was talking so softly which I couldn't hear, but the mummy sort of forgave him lah. What the little boy said caught my attention cos it effectively demonstrated the relationship between us and God, we as the children, God as Daddy or "Mummy". I have also come to realise that no matter how many times we sin, or disappoint our parents, they will still forgives us because they love us too much and so will definitely forgive us. So likewise it is for our Heavenly Father, who is so willing to forgive us as long as we say "sorry". So, guys, whatever you have sin or done wrong, don't worry cos our Daddy God will forgives us and help us to overcome whatever trials we faced.

There's also another lesson I have learnt from this boy today. God was teaching me to be forgiving and loving and to have a child-like faith. I was actually quite mad at my sis for something that she had done (I will not discuss the details beacuse it's private affairs lah, I did prayed, God only said "Don't worry". So I will just sit back and wait for God miracles again lah). Anyway, God was trying to tell me that no matter what, I cannot "abandon" my sis, instead, shower her with love and care just like how God shower His unfailing love towards me. (Not to say I don't love my sis lah, but I'm always very strict and fierce towards my family members cos I have too high expectations for them liao, so when they did not meet my targeted expectations, I will go bonkers!!!) So I will have to change my straight forward attitude towards erm--abit slow and roundabout manner. HEHE (I tend to do things super fast!!! :P)

Oh, I have finally come to fully understand why does God always emphaise that we must have child-like faith in order to experience a new creation is us. It is because a child is the most purest among we human beings, and they tend to submit to authority without doubts. This is what God wants--submission to Him willingly and fully and without any doubts. For it is written, how great the miracles we expect God to perform, depend on how much faith we have in Him. If we have faith but doubt God, nothing is gonna work. So we have to be like little pure kids--I must really really praise our Chinese ancestors now!!! they invented so many chim and profound words (that are always super short) to describe one or many long sentences or words---赤子之心 is very important for the successful establishment relationship between us and God.

I will be posting part of a Christian song here, this is taken from my4 yr old pretty mixed blood niece who is attending a christian kindergarden school.
Background: Her whole family is not christian lah, (I also don't know why my cousin actually send her to a christian school) and my cousin told me my niece was filled with enthusiam when the whole school was doing praise and worship (children way lah). Btw, my niece emerged as the number one in reciting bible verses and everything that got to do with God lah. HAHAHA but Praise God. And my cousin was afraid she might convert, so she constantly bring my niece to Bangkok to pray to their own "God". Well, I asked my niece if she knows the difference between the Chirstian God and the "God" her family was currently praying to. She said she knows. When I was explaining about God to the rest of my elders, she was also paying close attention to whatever I'm saying. My cousin said she doesn't want my neice to be like me. I laughed and replied in a joking manner "If God wants her, that's really nothing you can do to stop God from taking her". I believe that God perhaps may have other plans for my cutie little niece lah, so we shall see what's the outcome lor.

the songs are:

God makes my eyes and God makes my nose, God makes my lips and God makes my hips (and the children were expected to shake their hips,HAHA). God makes my hands and GOd makes my toes (the children are expected to raise their feet and show their toes).......

Jesus loves me and I love Him!!!

I forgot the rest lah cos it's not easy to fully understand what kids are saying sometimes, you get what I mean??

Saved!!!

2007-10-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

WAH!!! I was so scared just now!!! I was trying ways and means to remove the ugly tagbox from my blog, but somehow, i ended up deleted everything and my blog was a blank piece of paper just now!!! And my Chinese blog assignment was due today!!! Althoug I uploaded it yesterday night, but still, I am scared that cher might not see it yesterday, so I sent her an email just now. But thank God, everything back to normal within 10 mins. I was praying lah, and I tried calling zx for help, but she did not answer. Haiz, really thank God for saving me in the nick of time lah (no wonder God always says HE never fails us, even when others fail us, He will not), I just anyhow pressed here n there, click here n there, n tada!!! my blog is back to normal condition. whew!

感叹中华文化的流失

2007-10-12T04:29:00.000-07:00

中华文化虽有五千年之久的历史，可是真正了解中华文化的人确是少之又少。别说中国内地本身，就说那些拥有华侨居住的国家如香港，台湾，新加坡等等，许多人对自己的传统习俗似乎不太理解，更不用说是对基本中华文化的认识了。背后的原因很简单：大多数的人，尤其是年轻人对自己的传统文化没兴趣，甚至有些还歧视，或排斥中华文化，一心只追求西方文化。这样的一种现象在本国是非常普遍的。中华文化面临这样的危机，该如何是好呢？

或许，因为我们已经习惯了西方的文化，所以我们的言行举止都是以西方为榜样。无论是在生活上，饮食习惯，住宅的建设等，几乎都是“MADE IN WESTERN”。甚至很多青少年已彻底的被西方化了，导致他们无法摆脱他们西方的生活方式与文化观念。与此同时，为了不想被西方社会淘汰，青少年只好加快脚步紧追西方潮流的步伐。这种现象是每一个国家都在面临的问题，也是许多政府，特别是东南亚政府，正在想办法对付的问题。

尤其在本国，西方文化的“后遗症”更是明显。我一向都不赞同一些朋友排斥中华文化。他们以英语说：“华语并不重要，文化更不用提了，反正西方始终是领导者”。他们一心崇洋的态度令我感到愤怒，顿时间想替中华文化和语文打抱不平。难道他们不觉得惭愧吗？不觉得羞耻吗？身为华人的我都觉得惭愧极了。对于他们这样的态度，我只能用“数典忘祖”，“可怜兮兮”　来形容这些朋友与其他人。

很多媒体华文工作者已经非常努力的在提倡中华文化了。例如，由李安导演拍摄的《色诫》，王立宏的《盖世英雄》专辑，Koei Company, Limited （日本电子游戏生产商）推出的《三国演义》电子游戏等等，里面都隐含了丰富的中华文化意义。可惜，大多数的人只为了看电影而看，听偶像的歌而听，玩游戏而玩游戏，不只忽略了也无法意识到其中的讯息，真是枉费了这些工作者的一番苦心。虽然媒体是传播中华文化精华的重要桥梁之一，可是它所能做的，是非常有限的。只要人们一天没改变他们对中华文化的态度，或是得不到良好的学习，无论媒体的各个工作人员在怎么努力，也是无济于事的。

还有一件更令人觉得可笑的事情。我们都非常清楚日本最重视的是传统文化习俗，而他们的某一些文化习俗是跟我们中华文化息息相关的。日本人一向都把自己的传统文化保存得非常好，反而，一向称自己为炎黄子孙的我们，不但对自己的传统中华文化没兴趣，也更加没有好好的保存这些精华。甚至还需“劳烦”非华人，如日本来帮我们保存这些精华。这件事情在外人眼里看起来不只莫名其妙，更是荒谬不堪。我认为这对我们中华人来说是一种无声的“羞辱”。我不是不赞同日本人帮我们保存我们中华文化的精华，毕竟人多好办事。可是这始终是我们自己的东西，无需他人为我们这么做。

现在，来谈谈本国的华语水准。新加坡虽是于四大语言为国语，但是很多青少年，尤其是华人青少年，对自己的母语完全不认识。就如我几位华人朋友，只会写自己的中文名字，但对其余的中华文字却是一窍不通。再加上，本国的华语教材经过了教育部几次的大修改后，本国青少年的华语水准不但没有提高，反倒是逐渐下降。虽然已开了Syllabus B 的华语课程，可是还是有一部分的学生仍旧是不及格的。除此之外，教育部也准许那些对华语没兴趣的华人学生可以不用选修华语科目。这样的新策略实在是令我感到非常的失望，因为本国的华语水准很明显的“衰退”了。本国的华语水准竟然还没完全提高，更不用说是本国的华人对基本中华文化的认识了。本国的教育制度能顺利的培育出许多英才优秀生，可是华才优秀生却是寥寥无几。即使能培育出有优秀的华才生，但又有几个能通晓中华文化的精华呢？掌握好语言，并非意味着掌握好文化知识。

以上这一点对本国想要和正在崛起的中国建立良好的生意关系在很大的程度上呈现了一个非常大的障碍。新加坡商人在中国做亏本生意的例子是一个非常鲜明又真实的现象。自己的华语程度比不上中国人，再加上本身又不理解当地的历史文化，这简直是将自己陷在陷阱里，自挖坟墓。中国人一向最讲究的是传统历史文化，它们至今仍以自己五千年的历史文化感到自豪。可偏偏，本国的华人确不把它当一回事，结果搞得自己生意做不成，还欠下了一屁股债。就以苏州工业园这个计划来说，新加坡政府投资失败，最终还是因为不太了解中国的文化，而遭受残忍的淘汰。我想利用这个例子向大家说明一件实事，单会说和写华语是不够的（这些对本身在本国或者和其他华人交谈时有帮助），我们还需要了解中华文化的精要，这样才能够在中国生意的道路上走得更远，更踏实。不仅仅是生意上，在和非华人交谈时，解释我们的中华文化与历史，这些宝贵的知识确实对我们是非常有用的。

据以上的几个观点，很清楚地揭露了是中华人们本身对自己的中华文化没兴趣。一心崇洋的态度，致使他们将自己的文化打入冷宫，不复再用。所以，不管华文工作人员怎么努力挽救中华文化，只要人们的态度一天不变，那么再多的努力也是白费的。我们一直向非华人宣扬我们自己的传统文化历史，可是却没有实际的动作来证明我们的说法，这不仅是一张空头支票，也向非华人暗示了中华文化的枯燥乏味。试问，我们又有何理由再向别人推崇我们的中华文化呢？其实，中华文化是非常值得我们保留并宣扬的，毕竟那是我们的“根”。所谓“尘归尘，土归土”，“饮水思源”就是这个意思。可惜啊，那么漂亮的中华文化不仅无情的被打入冷宫，还被自己“冷漠”的炎黄子孙排斥，实在是令人感叹不已啊！

Sources

2007-10-04T08:21:00.001-07:00

I'm still searching for something relevant, yet simplistic an original material for my Chinese blog assignment lah. Headache lor, cos find here and there like nothing useful enough. And the assignment is due next friday!!!! "-_-"

Who got any better idea or things can tell me wat to write, ok? It can be either compliants or things that are worth discussing. Actually I have thought of a few lah, like the students behaviour nowadays, the F*** guy (i'm not scolding this guy F***, but refer to him as Mr F*** guy cos he always F*** on the bus) on 188, but all these seem too lousy. Tired lah, if really can't fish for sources, i will just throw dice and anyhow do,hehe

Results of the lantern making

2007-10-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

Remember my lantern-making story??? I made one lantern with my student (almost 95% done by me lah), well, results were out. She did not win, she told me got there were many nicer ones--This was the earlier part.
Until recently, she told me it was her teacher's fault, cos her teacher missed the deadline for sending the best lantern in, as such, she did not get a prize. HAHAHA, aiya, prize or no prize doesn;t matter lah, as long as we have put in our best efforts can liao lor. HAHA

It matters only if God forgives you

2007-10-02T07:12:00.000-07:00

Wohoo... things went very smoothly today

1) got an A+ for SE 2218 group project. Bet Wouter and br are all smiles :))))) so thank God for blessing us with good grades.

2) History test went quite well lah, managed to finish all the readings and notes and able to answer most of the question. Thank God

3) Late submission issue was officially settled today.
Background of this issue: Well, I'm super ashamed of myself cos I have sinned. I told a lie (not totally a lie cos it did happen and on many occassion) in order to save the whole group which is not correct in God's eyes cos lying is akin to murder. I was filled with immense guilt and remorsefulness and started praying for forgiveness. The thing is God loves us so much that He will forgives us no matter what wrongs we have committed, as long as we prayed for forgiveness and repent and trust in Him solely, only then will He make our paths straight again. No doubt after I prayed for forgiveness, God forgave at that very moment(this is an undeniable fact, bible, which is God's words made it clear to us about this issue). I entrusted this matter into His good hand. God replied "Don't worry". So I went to tell my other 2 grp members "Hey, don't worry lah, cos my God just told me not to worry, so don't worry.He will settles for us" (all my grp members are non christians lah). Thus, went to clear up issue with professional today and true enough, the professor let us off!!!! I even told the professor the truth and explained, and he said okok. Thank God in jesus name, amen!!!

I know you all may start saying "but you lied, why does your God still helped you to solve your mistakes and even when the other grp members are non christian, and may even question the doubt of God speaking to me?"

Well, the truth speaks for itself. I know that if I told them this thing would be settled smoothly after our explanation to professor, and later explained it to my grp members cos my God said so, who would believe what rubbish I'm talking about???? I'm 100% sure non would!!!!! Even some of my friends and relatives laugh at the mention of what miracles my God would do!!! The reason why I chose to tell my grp members b4hand that this issue would be settled and none of us will suffer a cut in grade as my God says so, is because I wanted to prove to them very much and to others who always demanded a valid testimony as to what God can do. By telling them b4hand, shows that my God is real and really exist, and that He hears the prayes of all His believers and non believers and will help them as long as we (refering to both believers and non believers) put our trust in Him totally. This is the greatest testimony to non believers who doesn't believes that God speaks to us. Maybe some of you might still find it abit ridiculous, but I assured you, God always does the most unexpected and ridiculous things and you will be dumbstruck at His miracles. And I can proudly say that now 1 of my grp members (who's a non believer) asked me to pray for her CNM project. Praise God!!!

Let me end off this post with a story and analysis I read from daily bread sometime ago. I will briefly summarize the story lah......

There was this american murderer who mudered many many people and finally caught and put behind bars waiting to be hanged. It was only in jail that this very cold-blooded murderer accepted Christ and got saved. As such, we all know that when we accepted Christ, it means our old self (can be your sinful behaviour and habits or crimes you committed etc...) was "dead", we are a new creation in God now. From then onwards, this "murderer" (i put in inverted commas cos he's now a new man in God, and to avoid confusion, i just leave it as murderer lah) changed for the better. Alot of people were shocked at his goody behaviour and conduct and when the time's up for him to be hanged, many people, even pastors and churches appealed against his death sentence, saying that he should be given a new chance. But sadly, the High Court rejected the appeal and thus this man was hanged. But I want to say this, although I'm not God, but I'm very confident that this very cold-blooded murderer is in heaven right now, enjoying life with God :)))

Analysis:
In my case and this murder's case, both of us are christians, we trust God with our everything, but the outcome of our consequences are different. The most important point is this: It does not matters at all (not even a single bit) if the world will forgives you, but it does matters alot if God will forgives you. You know what the murder said when he was hanged?? He said It's ok, I'm at peace and happy. The very reason why he said this was because he have received the forgivess of the Almight and he knew that the Almighty will receive him when he's dead. In my case, I was prepared to get a zero, my only request and prayer to God was this: "God, I knew that I have sinned in your eyes, which makes me no difference from the murderer, but I also know that no matter what, YOU still loves me and will forgives me for my sins, YOU have never failed to do so, and will not fail me again. But I'm fully prepared to pay for the consequences, and I don't mind getting zero, but please help my grp members for they were in this mess cos of my carelessness. in jesus name, amen". Again, you all may think "wah, are you willing to get zero or just said it for fun or to get sympathy from God?? "
I assured you with a resounding "NO"!!! God knows very well if I'm lying and He's not easily swayed by our mere human opinions.

Moral of story:
We all know that we should all pay for the consequences for our sins. The reason why this murderer was dead cos he had to pay for his sins in this mortal world. Even if God has forgiven you, it doesn't mean you won't have to pay for your sins, it's just that you need not be bothered by this worldy issues and condemn yourself non stop. And if God has forgiven you, it means you are forgiven, no point blaming yourself for your own sins, you are not God, so don't say "Oh God , I know YOU have forgiven me, but I just can't stop feeling guilty", this is not right, God wants us to stop it. That's the reason why the murderer was in peace and happy, and also why I'm sure no matter what is the outcome, I don't have to worry, cos God will settles it for me nicely since He said so, and we should trust in him fully, no even a single doubt allowed.

Makan spree soon....

2007-09-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

Cos of this wisdom tooth operation, I can't eat like I used to :(

Took me half and hour to finish thinly cut slices of pear. And I can feel the knot on my gums!!!Keep chewing on it!!! Hope to get it removed soon lor!!!

Just read sm's blog and it reminded me of my makan spree!!! So, when I'm 100% ok, we will go n eat non stop!!!HAHAHA, to make up for my lost time in eating delicious food...yumyum

In the meanwhile, have to read my notes and do my tutorial and study for tests. Haiz, I hate test and exam lah!!!! Really piggy pig lor :PPP

赞美

2007-09-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

我见到得胜君王
踏着云儿降临人间
oh 全球震动
oh 全球震动
oh yeah~

我见主无私奉献
赦免我们所有罪孽
oh 寻求真理
oh 寻求真理

oh 赞美~
oh 赞美~
oh 赞美我得胜君王

我见新起的一代
肩负着你派的重任
oh 无私的信仰
oh 无私的信仰
oh yeah~

我见主推的动力
凯歌高颂赞美主
oh 人类将跪席
oh 人类将跪席

oh 赞美
oh 赞美
oh 赞美我得胜君王

oh 赞美
oh 赞美
oh 赞美我得胜君王

I specially compose this song and poem for my God. This is actually my own translated version from the English version of Christian song called Hosanna. Hosanna means praise the Almighty. Although some parts are not being translated ( cos I don't know how to link it) and some are being summarized (I summarise the 2nd part of "I see His love and mercy"with "无私的奉献"), but this is just to show my appreciation for God. This song have been compsed quite long long ago, just that I'm too lazy to pose it and I'm afraid it will be too shallow. But couldn't be bothered liao lah, cos I know God will like it, cos it's our hard work and sincerity.

Don't worry, coming out soon, after.....

2007-09-28T04:18:00.001-07:00

These are the only 3 words I heard from God today while I was having an operation (wisdom tooth operation).

I was given local anaesthesia, so it means I'm bascially wide awake throughout the whole operation process, only my left mouth, gum and lips were numb (3 different types of injections at one go)!!! Let me make this clear----I'm not afraid of pain, even when I was small. But since I worked in dental clinic b4, it means I have witnessed such kind of operation b4, so even b4 the dentist even proceed onto the next step, I already sort of knew what he was gonna do. Btw, this dentist was my dad's superior in the army!!!! My dad served in the medic department during his army days. And this dentist is a catholic, because I saw portrait of Jesus christ on the wall, and a catholic cross on the wall too!!! So, you see, even for an operation, I will be meeting God's people, although the otehr person may be a catholic, while I'm a christian.

But what he said shock me!!! He said my gums too thick and the wisdom tooth too deep deep deep deep deep inside (I had 2 wisdom tooth, but dentist refuses to extract 2 at the same time, because he said it's too deep and I might not be able to take it, mum said maybe dentist find me too skinny and so can't take the pain and might faint.HAHAHA). And he took such a long time to take the tooth out. He tried plucking it out after he sliced open my gum, but failed miserably due to thick gums and stubborn tooth!!!! So he tried drilling, and "chiselling", and this went on for quite some time. I started praying and singing songs to praise God, HIS reply was "Don't worry". I was starting to get restless and tired and scared (not cos of pain lah, but the waiting time is scary) cos the tooth just refuses to budge!!!!!

I was singing "God, you are my God", and at the same time, also began to ask God: "God, coming out or not!!!Haiz", and I started praying "Get out in jesus name, amen x5"!!!!! God replied "coming out soon, don't worry". I was "huh?" And God answered: "soon, after finish singing the song." I was so happy lah!!! Then i began to sing sing sing, and true enough, when I almost gonna sing finish,the tooth came out!!!!!!!! Glory be to God, amen!!!!

Haiz, another thing is, I have got a wedding to attend next sunday, and b4 that i prayed my cheeks will not swell (cos no one goes to a wedding as a "ugly duckling"), and God said "Don't worry", and guess what??? My cheeks did not even swell--not even a single bit!!!!! HAHAHA, praise God again!!! But my left lips swell, not due to medication nor was it side effect, but rather cos I'm sensitive to latex---dentist was wearing latex glove!!!! (My hand were covered in rashes when I used to work in dental clinic, but it never occured to me that it will be so serious lah--lips!!!). So dentist said for my next wisdom tooth operation, he will not wear the glove!!!! HAHAHA, gdgdgd!!! And my lips was pain lah, although dentist applied some cream to it, but the effect was too slow, so I started praying again. This time though God did not reply, the swell on my lips subside by almost half!!!! Thank God again!!!

So for this successful operation, I have to thank the dentist alot, cos he's too good!!! And of cos, most importantly my Dad who stood by the side to helped out (the nurse assistant is not so good lah--think she's nervous cos the dentist told her this is a real operation (mine case), and partly cos my dad (a used to be pro) was inside). But most most most importantly, have to thank my 1 and only lovely and gd gd GOD!!!!! Maybe you all may think this is just a minor operation, but to me, it maybe minor, but definitely most memorable one. Cos I have got 2 experts (dentist and dad) to help me out, and 1 Almighty (God) to make sure things run smoothly!!! And this operation lasted almost an hour as compared to an average wisdom tooth operation which takes about half hour or less, just to take out 1 single tooth!!!!---so isit still a minor operation?? And despite so, my cheeks remain per normal and everything was perfect--so this is not justa simple minor operation.

Oh, btw, i saw a fly on the tube which was used to suck my blood, and I was irritated and wanted to ask the nurse to change it. GOD immediately said "I'm the creator of all things on earth, I will make it clean for you, Don't worry"Actually despite so, I was quite worried, God spoke again "trust in me your Lord". 4 the 1st time, God spoke such a long sentence to me lor!And since He said it, so I just ok lor, and be obedient. You all may think it's so yucky and disgusting, but my God created them and He knows best how to deal with them and to make sure I don't have any problems, and true enough, I'm perfectly fine--much to fine that the workers in dad's office asked me, "are you sure you have been through the operation??? I suffered alot when I had my wisdom tooth operation done!!"

HAHAHA, I don't know what else to say, but this :"it is by the grace of my God that all things are made possible and that I am able to look perfectly fine, so glory be to God forever and ever. Amen"

God delivers....

2007-09-28T04:11:00.000-07:00

I lost my thumbdrive on monday in school, AS7 com lab,while printing notes. It was only midnight that I realised my thumbdrive is gone, I was so worried because I don't know what to say to my dad. (although i cna buy it myself, but still, there's a need to explain to him). As such i started praying and God reassured me with a "Don't worry". Since it's midnight and there's nothing much I can do, I slept.

I woke up the next morning and called my friend who stays in Hall to check for me, but she said it wasn't there at all!!!! Sad, so i started praying again and God just said "DOn't worry". When I wen to school yesterday, I went to the com lab and checked it myself, it was not there...

Laogong suggested asking the uncle who's in charge of the com lab, so I went to ask and true enough, my thumbdrive was there!!!!! HAHAHA, God delivers again!! Thank God in jesus name, amen!!!

Noisy Pecker

2007-09-22T21:13:00.000-07:00

Lao gong and I were onboard 188 and saw this guy!!!!!!! He's such a pig!!! so noisy!!!!!

HE kept on complaining about the bus driver drving skills, and even complained about the other bus drivers!! He even said the F*** word so many times!! What a vuglar man!!! He even insisted on sitting right at the back and if he vomits, the bus driver will be dead meat!!! He even complained that the bus shouldn't move sideways, it must remain straight throughout!!! Excuse me!!!!!His comment made lao gong and me wonder if he had ever studied!!! How can things be rigid if they were moving????Be it human or objects, they were bound to snap if there are no space for flexibilityand movemnets!!What a abursd comment!!HAiz, have you ever met such an unreasonable man before? HE sure gets on the nerve of lao gong and me!!!

I was telling lao gong that it was his own fault if he vomits because, we can only blame it on our own weak body constituion and motion sickness, how can you let others take the blame for you? I was prepared to argue with the man if he sure does vomit!!!! Pig Pig Pig!!!!

Lao gong even said we should bring him to church to enlighten him!!!HAHAHA, But I'm very sure he will create havoc in the church!!!! HAHAHA

Shayne Ward New Music Video - If That's Ok With You

2007-09-16T00:53:00.001-07:00

Learn this dance in dance MTV class today!!!

Enjoyed myself thoroughly, the dance steps were super duper funny and tiring lor.

Dil To Pagal Hai: Koi Ladki Hai (Chak Doom)With English Subs

2007-09-15T07:50:00.001-07:00

Have been searching for this song very long!!!! Dil to paagal hain is also another nice bollywood movie. The songs are super cute

Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom....

Ghode Jaisi Chaal Haathi Jaisi Dum
O Saawan Raja Kahaan Se Aaye Tum
Ghode Jaisi Chaal Haathi Jaisi Dum
O Saawan Raja Kahaan Se Aaye Tum

Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Koi Ladki Hai Jab Vo Hansti Hai
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Koi Ladki Hai Jab Vo Hansti Hai
Baarish Hoti Hai Chhanar Chhanar Chhumchhum
Koi Ladki Hai Jab Vo Hansti Hai
Baarish Hoti Hai Chhanar Chhanar Chhumchhum

Koi Ladka Hai Jab Vo Gaata Hai
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Arre Koi Ladka Hai Jab Vo Gaata Hai
Saawan Aata Hai Ghumar Ghumar Ghumghoom
Koi Ladka Hai Jab Vo Gaata Hai
Saawan Aata Hai Ghumar Ghumar Ghumghoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Ho Ho Ho Ho
Hey Hey Hey Hey

Baadal Jhuke Jhuke Se Hain
Raste Ruke Ruke Se Hain
Kya Teri Marzi Hai Megha
Par Hum Ko Jaane Na Dega
Aage Hai Barsaat Peechhe Hai Toofan
Mausam Beimaan Kahaan Chale Humtum
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Koi Ladki Hai Jab Vo Hansti Hai
Baarish Hoti Hai Chhanar Chhanar Chhumchhum
Koi Ladka Hai Jab Vo Gaata Hai
Saawan Aata Hai Ghumar Ghumar Ghumghoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Ho Ho Ho Ho
Hey Hey Hey Hey

Ambar Jhuka Jhuka Sa Hai
Sab Kuchh Ruka Ruka Sa Hai
Chhaya Samaa Kitna Pyaara
Saawan Ka Samjho Ishaara
Aise Mausam Mein Tum Bhi Kuchh Kaho
Tum Bhi Kuchh Karo Khadi Ho Kyon Gumsum
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Ghode Jaisi Chaal Haathi Jaisi Dum
O Saawan Raja Kahaan Se Aaye Tum
Ghode Jaisi Chaal Haathi Jaisi Dum
O Saawan Raja Kahaan Se Aaye Tum

Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Koi Ladki Hai Jab Vo Hansti Hai
Baarish Hoti Hai Chhanar Chhanar Chhumchhum
Koi Ladka Hai Jab Vo Gaata Hai
Saawan Aata Hai Ghumar Ghumar Ghumghoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom
Chakdhoom Dhoom Chakdhoom Dhoom

Ho Ho Ho Ho
Hey Hey Hey Hey
Ho Ho Ho Ho
La La La

Dola Re Dola - Devdas

2007-09-15T07:39:00.001-07:00

One of my favourite Bollywood dance and movie!!! Devdas!!!!

Let's not give up meeting together.....

2007-09-13T00:09:00.000-07:00

Today woke up early cos need to meet up for project meeting. But the focus is not on project meeting, I'm gonna discuss about prayer meeting or fellowship meeting.

I saw 2 groups of christian fellowships today in the forum. The other group was alreadying discussing and talking about the bible and God's stuff, the other group was waitng for their other group mates. I was discussing the project with my friends while keeping my ears open to whatever they were syaing or praying about. I felt so sad and lonely--cos I couldn't go to church and it has been a super long time since I had my last discipleship and prayer meeting.

Haiz, I think God was hinting to me to "go back" and have my discipleship. For it is important that all christians grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ (2 Peter 3:18). This is also not the 1st time that God spoke to me about the importance of fellowship, He did it once through an online chinese sermon lah. Seems like I must start doing my "1st step bk" again!!!

To all christians, if you think it is ok not to go for fellowship or prayer meetig or have a cellgroup, then you are absolutely wrong. Because it is impossible for one piece of wood to keep the fire glowing all day long, but rather, you need many pieces of wood to keep the fire glowing stong and all day long. If God can hint to me about all such things, all the more it proves the importance of cellgroup and the various kind of meetings that the cellgroup will have.

"Let's not give up meeting together, but rather encourage one another. All the more when you see the day approaching."

CSRP

2007-09-13T00:00:00.000-07:00

What in the world does CSRP stands for? It means crap + singing + roach playing.

HAd 4 hr break today, so lao gong and I were super duper bored to death. As such, we crapped alot today from holiday trips to food to christian stuff. Then when we were restless, we did Praise and Worship---right in the school campus where almost everyone could see and listen when they walk past!!! HAHAHA. And we just couldn't be bothered, (for if God is for us, who can be against us?)so we continued singing non stop and blasting the christian songs at a reasonable volume lah. Then later I spotted a cockroach again!!!!! Sian lor!!!

So i was playing with the roach and kept blowing at it!!! Lao gong was laughing and saying "Don't blow lah, wait it come over to my side!!!" In the end, lao gong used her M&M wrapper to poke the cockroach and it ran off so fast!!! Since we couldn't find the cockroach, we quickly left the seats for fear it might be hiding somewhere and later "take revenge" on us. HAHAHA

Waiting for my 4pm tutorial........

Don't worry!!!!!

2007-09-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

"Don't worry"---- this is the word that I heard so many times from God today.

Was heading towards jurong point area for tution from changi airport. So I decided to take bus to jurong point. All my friends said the journey is about 2 hrs plus (abt 3hrs--have to take 2 buses), but still, I decided to go ahead, (I just want to sit on the bus and stone and calm down after crying so much after honey is gone + I have got bus concession). So I followed sl and took a bus back to woodlands interchange. The journey was super long lah!!!! But i prayed that i will not be late, God's reply was "Don't worry".

My tuition was supposed to be at 2:30pm, i shifted it to 3pm plus plus. Then when I reached woodlands, it was already 1:48pm, then waited for the next bus, so i officially moved on at 2pm. So I prayed again and got the same reply. But stupid me was freaking out cos when i reached jurong west, it was already 2:50pm!!!!! (still quite far from jurong pt). So I decided to take matters into my own hand, I called my dad, but he did not picked up the phone!!! Aand before I realised where I was, I was in jurong pt interchange!!! Praise God. I reached my tuition kid's house at 3:12pm!!! NOt late at all!!!!! No wonder my dad did not ans my call---God's will!!!! God delivers!!!

Talking about roaches--- I saw one big cockroach on bus 172 as i was heading for home, right beside me!!!!! I was so scared lah, and i shifted slightly to the right side. I immediatelyprayed to God for help, His reply was "Don't worry" again. Thus i cast my fears aside (although i would glance at my left occassionally). And true enough, The cockroach "disappeared", did not see it again!!!! HAHA---God delivers again!!!!

"Don't worry" is such a simple word which so many of us often said to one another. It may be to your close friends or relatives or even strangers. However, despite them saying so, one still often feels quite worried. But when it is someone who is so powerful said it you, you will feel much better and assured. That's my God!!!!! Holy Holy Holy

Honey is gone

2007-09-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

Honey is gone, and my life feel so empty suddenly. I believed all my friends will feel the same too. Afterall, we have been friends for almost 7 years (and will continue to be). Cried so much today when she gradually walked away and into the check in point.

Prayed for her while crying and sincerely hoped that she will enjoy her life in Taiwan.

To Honey

Will visit you in Taiwan soon!!!! (I will bring the bear bear) HAHA

Holy Holy Holy

2007-09-12T06:13:00.000-07:00

Was listening to the song "Open the eyes of my heart ". And theses words, "Holy Holy Holy kept repeating over and over again. And it also happened that i was reading "My Daily Bread" and i saw these Holy Holy Holy story. The Lord was speaking to me again!! HAHA

Everytime i will sing Holy Holy Holy to God when I don't know how to sing some christian songs, so i just substitute those lyrics which I don't know with Holy Holy Holy. I thought God would be bored with my repeated Holy, but today God said no, through this "My Daily Bread".

Below are the text which I read today and which God answered me.

Holy, Holy, Holy

They do not rest day or night, saying: "Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come!" —Revelation 4:8

Time flies when you're having fun." This cliché has no basis in fact, but experience makes it seem true. When life is pleasant, time passes all too quickly. Give me a task that I enjoy, or a person whose company I love, and time seems irrelevant. My experience of this "reality" has given me a new understanding of the scene described in Revelation 4. In the past, when I considered the four living creatures seated around God's throne who keep repeating the same few words, I thought, What a boring existence! I don't think that anymore. I think about the scenes they have witnessed with their many eyes (v.8). I consider the view they have from their position around God's throne (v.6). I think of how amazed they are at God's wise and loving involvement with wayward earthlings. Then I think, What better response could there be? What else is there to say but, "Holy, holy, holy"?

Is it boring to say the same words over and over? Not when you're in the presence of the one you love. Not when you're doing exactly what you were designed to do.
Like the four creatures, we were designed to glorify God. Our lives will never be boring if we're focusing our attention on Him and fulfilling that purpose.

Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty!
Early in the morning our song shall rise to Thee;
Holy, holy, holy! Merciful and mighty!
God in three Persons, blessed Trinity!

—Heber

Why are you so confident??

2007-09-08T06:30:00.000-07:00

"Why are you so confident??" A question asked by one of my tuition kids today. My reply was this "It's because today die die must finish the lantern, since you need to hand in on monday. And because I have prayed to God before doing anything, so obviously He would bless us."

Well, actually I was helping my student to make her lantern for the upcoming lantern festival. We started on monday, and continued on wednesday, friday and saturday. The work progress was quite slow but we managed to finish it today (Thank God). I almost gave up because I was too tired (everyday's a busy schedule for me) and pissed off by the attitude of my student for the past 3 days. But I'm just not sure what made me stayed back and helped her throughout this whole lantern making process.

I can only think of 2 reasons:

1) I used to do D&T (Design and Technology) in secondary school , and enjoyed the whole process of making an artefact. You get a satisfaction feeling after seeing your completed work.

2) Since I gave her the ideas of how to make a lantern, I should stay on and helped her, like the chinese saying---要帮就帮到底。

And throughout this whole lantern making process, she (my student) made me felt weak but mightily sustained by God. She ignited the hunger in me for God constantly------I was about to go off on wednesday after tuition and helping her for about 4 hours plus, but she kept on begged me to stay and finish the drawing. She said "Stay with me leh, finish this lah, very fast one, awhile only. Stay leh stay leh, I can't do without you, you know. Without you, I cannot survive leh". All this while, her hand was closed together, as if she was praying to me to stay. HAHAHA. And when she said "I can't live without you", I was telling God, "It's you that I can't live without. I'm so tired, please sustain me." Immediately I felt energetic abit, and stayed on to help her finish her lantern.

But one bad thing--for the past 3 days, I was basically the one doing almost all the work lah!!!! She just sat beside me talking rubbish and watching TV. (Made me super mad!!!! Wonder why did i ever volunteer to help her and for FREE somemore lor!!!!) But today, she automatically helped out in doing most of the things (easy stuff. I was quite relunctant to let her do the other stuff for fear she might ruin everthing, she's just a small kid). And she accidentally cut her finger while helping me to remove the sticky tape from the scissor, and my response was "go and wash your finger now!!" After that. i just couldn't be bothered, cos i was busy making and doing so many things at one time. I have got to admit that it was cruel of me to remain unsympathetic towards her injury, so I started praying to God to heal her wound, and it did stop bleeding after awhile and I did not hear her saying "Pain Pain Pain".

Finally, everything was done!!! I was quite disappointed at the initial design of the lantern on wednesday. But today, everything was perfect---it may not be the most beautiful lantern or the most creative lantern, but it is definitely a "godly feeling" lantern. Because part of the design was an impromptu from God. Things wasn't going as smoothly as I have expected, and I thought it was a disaster after I unintentionally made one mistake--but it was a "blessed" mistake because at that point of time, I was pondering over what to do with the petals, and TADA, this mistake provided me with the idea of drawing "what you like". "将错就错" is sometimes really a blessing in disguise.

Faith is the basis of our relation with God,
Without which, everything will turn into a disaster.

"And if God is for me, who can be against me"

"If anything we want to boast, boast in the name of the Lord, for it was through Him, that all things can be done well. As long as you pray for anything (good prayer, not those selfish prayer)in Jesus's name, it will be done for you."-----that's why most Christian appear very confident in whatever they do.

Christians here, Christians there

2007-09-06T08:16:00.000-07:00

God is so cute and amazing!!!! Met 3 christian people today---2 in NUS, the other 1 (family of 4) on bus 188.

One of them was my SE2218 lecturer. He was talking about the church stuff in relation to the religion topic, and he was so funny in his illustrations. The other was a girl from my HY2206 project group. She's from Harvest.....Church (I forgot the name of her church, but it was a pentecost church). The last group was actually much of a coincidence. The father was actually wearing a top with the word "HOLY BIBLE" behind, it was kind of a bible word game printed on the back of his top.

It's amazing how God constantly surrounds us with his people, making sure that we will not stray from His righteous path. And God was actually talking to me about something that has been bothering me for quite some time. God did it via my SE2218 lecturer. The lecturer was saying something and the light bulb in me just kept on blinking---signal from God to pay attention to whatever the lecturer was saying lah.

Alot of my non christian friends and relatives have told me that i should not mixed with christians too much. But the thing is, even if i don't mix with them, God will still send them to me or talk to me instead. And God will try all ways and means to make sure that i do not stumble in my walk with Him

He sees us whenever we go,
He knows what we are thinkin about,
He knows what will be our next steps,
So there is no hiding from the Almighty
Beacause He is omnipresent, omnipotent and omniscience

Sabo by "crab"

2007-09-06T07:57:00.000-07:00

Rules: Each player of the game starts off by writing 6 weird things about themselves before choosing another 6 of their friends to "sabo". People who get tagged need to write in a blog on their own, 6 weird things about themselves and state the rules clearly.--set by Sabo "crab"

This Sabo "crab" is none other than my childish lao gong lah, who do funny things only lor. But well, it's fun. Since i'm being sabo, so here's my weird weird stuff..

1) I can eat non stop all day (weight at 43kg in the morning) and my weight will goes back to
40kg at night.

2) I tend to feel tired very easily. But when i finished brushing my teeth and washing my face, preparing to retire to bed, I start to feel energetic all over again.

3) I love to exercise but i hate doing it under the hot sun.

4) Keep talking about losing weight, but instead keep eating non stop.

5) Don't cry even when I am in intense pain due to physical injuries.

6) Obeyed God by majoring in CL, but always telling people that I am gonna change my major. (in the end, God wins, die die have to stick to CL)

So now, i sabo...

1) Ting Yi

2) Ming Hui

3) Sin May

4, 5, 6) whoever is reading this blog, hehe

Unexpected turn of events

2007-09-01T08:48:00.000-07:00

Met up with big gal gal today for movie—Bourne ultimatum at The Cathay. We were dining at Manhattan and the food was simply fantastic!!! But big gal gal “spoilt” the whole thing lah!!! She said we should not waste the food, so she started to divide the remaining food into half, one for me, and one for her. But she dumped almost all the food to me to finish up!!!! And kept on saying, don't waste the food, must finish!!! (It's not fair, just because I'm little gal, she can bully me!!! 讨人厌啦!!!) so I had to force myself to finish the food lor......

Then one very pai sei thing happened at the cinema!! Two people were sitting on our seats, so we shifted behind. Then, another two people came so we had to shift away. As such, we confronted the two people who sat on our seats and realized that both our seats no were exactly the same!!!! So big gal gal and me went out to look for the people-in-charge. To our great surprise, our tickets were actually scheduled for tomorrow's slot!!!!!! Haiz, it was like, so pai sei lah. I was told that we were supposed to watch it today, but somehow, I don't know what happened to our tickets, so we have to come back tomorrow to watch the movie again. But anyway, it's a good ending also, because we were late and the movie had already started, and I was praying to God to settle everything from our seats to movie timing. But what I never expected was God twisted it in a 360 degree angle, which sort of benefited us greatly---That's my God. HeHeHe

Tired but blessed

2007-09-01T08:23:00.000-07:00

Ever since school started, life's been so busy...... Did not really have sufficient rest and at times, I just feel like a walking zombie (行尸走肉)。But thank God for sustaining me and helping me throughout each day. My whole body has been aching ever since last Sunday due to my dance MTV mix class, and it worsen when I went for the Dance Blast audition. Luckily, God healed me and now I feel so comfortable, no longer pain here, pain there, pain everywhere. =)

Got 2 group projects due this coming week (thank God that every major details were settled). Now we just need to type them out and hand in the hardcopy for the CL2280 group project. The other group project needs to be presented in class. And both my group project mates are such nice people and it's fun to be with them. Oh, my SE2218 group mates are all Christian!!!!! One of them is from the Netherlands!!!! HaHaHa

God sure never fails to surround us with His people…..

Chicken wing Queen ++++ giant eater

2007-08-26T01:39:00.000-07:00

Ate so many chicken wingssssss today!!! Normally, my MINIMUM amount is 10, now I think it is more than 10!!! My mother'ss chicken wing is so great and delicious and yummy and good!!!!! But today, her chicken wing was exceptionally yummy—(mum said she marinated it for 2 days)!!!! So I told her to marinate it for 2 days before cooking!! HaHaHa.

My family, friends, relatives all know me as one with super duper great appetite, cos I'm always eating non stop everyday, form morning till night---and I'm serious when I said non stop. I remembered on one occasion in NUS I ate Japanese food, and then straight after that, I ate another plate of fish and chips—all by myself, and lao gong was so shocked!!! You should have seen her expression. Those who just know me always get new surprises and shock from me and especially so when they saw me eating. And they will go: hey, where did all the food go to ar???? And I just smile and continue eating. And they will go eeeeee, so sinful (referring to those oily food, milk, cheese, ice cream)!!!! And I will say: aiya, eat first, later then lose weight lor---they will go: you no need to lose weight but I need lor!!! Thus, I will be the one end up eating myself. Haiz

So now almost everyone knows that I need to eat alot and will tell me to eat more eat more. HaHaHa.

But recently God has cut down on my diet lah!!!!! I did not eat so much like I used to, but my diet is still considered a lot in other people’s eyes. HeHeHe

Roaches Nightmare

2007-08-26T01:06:00.000-07:00

Have you ever experienced been scared by 1,2,3 cockroaches at one go?? I did!! And I was on bus 188 with lao gong.

I was not really that scared when I saw just one cockroach beside me crawling on the bus window (but I did shift my weight over to lao gong's side). Then another one appeared, followed by another one!!!!! Yucks!!!! I wanted to use my thick notes to slam it, but was too afraid to do so (because there were so many cockroaches!!!) And lao gong was so bad and haiz, did not protect me at all lor!!! Lao gong kept on saying that it will fly and this made me wanna cry. So in the end, we decided to stand. (Another guy took my seat, but he did not appear to be afraid, but we caught him fidgeting at certain times.HeHe)

Hang on, the nightmare was still not over. Lao gong spotted another empty seats behind, (on the opposite side), and we sat down, soon after awhile, another cockroach appeared and lao gong was so scared (her reaction was erm, abit drastic lah)!! So we shifted seats again, this time we shifted right to the front. Although this time, there were no more yucky cockroaches, but the experienced was enough to scared the wits out of lao gong and me. And I wanna complained about my lao gong lor, it seems like I much more braver and calmer than her, and I had to protect her in the end!!!

Now, the sight of cockroaches irks me so much that I have been complaining non stop to God about it, but thank God the roaches did not disturb me furthermore or I will go crazy!!!

The crazy torturesssssss of Motion sickness

2007-08-21T22:34:00.000-07:00

Ever since I came back from Taiwan, my motion sickness has been acting up so frequently. Although I have had it since I was young, and have always been mentally and physically preparing myself for the worse to happen if it does act up. But I just hate it!!!

Normally, I will start to feel giddy or headache which will be accompanied by the disgusting puking. Whether it is light giddiness or extreme painful headache, I have to vomit (even if I did not eat anything). And my motion sickness occurs without warning, and only happens when I’m not on “solid ground”, example, bus, mrt, car, boat, airplane and spinning while dancing. Whatever objects you can find moving, I can guarantee you that my motion sickness will surely acts up. I have heard that as you grow older, your motion sickness will gradually subside, but in my case, it seems to have worsen.

My motion sickness does not act up at night, it usually happens in the morning. And now, almost every time I came back from school, (the motion sickness is just like super glue, refusing to let go of me), I need to puke after I get down from 188. One of my friends said she has never see anyone like me experiencing such terrible motion sickness (She actually witnessed me vomiting and tearing once, and complaining headaches every time we went home from school). I finally get a taste of what is aversive food conditioning ( learnt this from Psychology last semester) when my motion sickness acts up.

And I really envy those who are able to read books on the moving vehicles, because I cannot. Every time I read, every time I vomit (I'm saying EVERY TIME), even if it's just reading for less than 30 seconds. And I have recently discovered that I cannot drink bubble tea on the bus, because I will vomit also. Haiz, I have to admit that my body constitution is really weak, despite the fact that doctors and Chinese physicians told me so, and my parents nagging at me non-stop. No wonder, wherever I go, I see those eat healthy and stay healthy signs, and those books that teach you how to eat right---God has been speaking to me and telling me to change my current eating habits and to eat those right foods. And God has recently cut down my food intake lor!!!! This is a good thing lah. HeHeHe

I guess I will have to continue a live full of tortures and haunting by illness and motion sickness. (Thank god my asthma has not return!!! And I wished that it will never return.) :p

"Fishing"

2007-08-21T22:01:00.000-07:00

School has officially started last week, and I like the modules that I have taken this semester. However, it makes me think twice if I should really major in Chinese language!!! Tough lor!!!! And there are so many “fishing” to be done this semester.

I’m still “fishing” for materials to write my Chinese blog!!! Haiz, blogging in Chinese is never easy. Professor said we must use formal speech tone and writing style, (in case she does not understand what we are writing about.) and I love my CH2271 male professor, he is just so entertaining with his cute speech and lectures. (not that I like him, but I like him and respect him as my lecturer!!)

Lao gong and me have been “fishing” for reading materials as well. There are so many readings to be done and so limited books available to us. But I have got to say that NUS library is definitely one of the best library in Singapore, even one of the lecturers said that our NUS library is one of the best in the world. So we have to wait patiently for the “fish to eat our bait”.

The deck is officially opened last Monday and it is always full of students, as usual!!! As compared to last semester, when the Deck was under renovation, the whole arts faculty was so lifeless. Now, it is back to the normal bustling lively arts faculty. Students from the other faculties are flocking to our arts canteen and basically, mean we have to wait and wait and wait and wait patiently for out turn to “fish” for empty seats, and to wait for our turn to buy food. But all these “fishing” and waiting is worthwhile because the food is really super duper delicious!!! Yum yum, now you know why I put on so much weight and where the bulk of my pocket money went to lah. HaHaHa.

“Fishing” for project mates is also quite troublesome. Did not get my desired CH2271 tutorial slot, and thus, the project mates which I have agreed to group with, is now out of the question. L But never mind, Daddy God will help me arrange the necessary things. God gave me a team of great project mates last semester, and everything went smoothly, So i trust Him to help me out again. I saw one Christian fellow in my CL2280, basic translation lecture yesterday. He was wearing a black polo t-shirt with the words: “God loves us so much that He sent His one and only Son to die for us.” If can, I hope that we will be in the same group for project!!! (last year, all my project groups are all Chirstians (I did not go round and ask if you are a Christian, but rather, we were talking and suddenly, came to know that all of us are Christians)!!!—amazing isn’t it?)

So, can you see how much “fishing” needs to be done this semester? But I have got to agree that all this “fishing” actually helped to train my patience. Next time, shall have a taste of real fishing…….

When You Believe-Prince Of Egypt

2007-08-14T10:13:00.001-07:00

“When you believe” is definitely one of the most inspiring songs among all the other Christian songs. I love the part where the Hebrew children were praising the Lord.

Many nights we’ve prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there’s much to fear
We were moving mountains long before we knew we could

There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail
It’s hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proved in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I’m standing here
With hearts so full I can’t explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I’d say

There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail
It’s hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

Hebrew children

A-shi-ra la-do-nai ki ga-oh ga-ah
(I will sing to the Lord, for He has triumphed gloriously)
A-shi-ra la-do-nai ki ga-oh ga-ah
(I will sing to the Lord, for He has triumphed gloriously)
Mi-cha-mo-cha-ba-elim adonai
(Who is like You, oh Lord, among the celestial)
Mi-ka-mo-cha ne-dar-ba-ko-desh
(Who is like You, majestic in holiness)
Na-chi-tah v’-chas-d’-cha am zu ga-al-ta
(in You love, You lead the people you redeemed)
Na-chi-tah v’-chas-d’-cha am zu ga-al-ta
(in You love, You lead the people you redeemed)
a-shi-ra, a-shi-ra, a-shi-ra
(I will sing, I will sing, I will sing)

Hebrews

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It’s hard to kill
Who knows what miracles

You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
Now you will
You will when you believe

You will when you believe

Hosanna

2007-08-14T09:55:00.001-07:00

One of my colleagues sent me this Christian songs and I fell in love with it!!! Wait, as in I can’t wait to sing this song for my God!!! And I have been trying to figure out the lyrics, thank God that br provided it in her blog, so I basically copy and paste. HAHAHA.

Hosanna

I see the King of Glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes

I see His love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We’re on our knees
We’re on our knees

Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into Eternity

The secret of maintaining my Hair

2007-08-13T22:54:00.001-07:00

Recently I received many compliments regarding my hair and to a lesser extent, my skin. So let me say a big “Thank you” to all of you who have been praising me. HAHAHA

A lot of people have been asking me if I have been maintaining my hair, and going for expensive treatments and so on… My reply was “NOooo. I don't maintain my hair at all.” And then they will give me the 'are you sure' look, and said “Really???? That's unbelievable!!!” and I will go “Yes.Haha” and walk off without even glancing back. Not to say that I'm trying to act “dao”, but what's the point of explaining to those people who do not even believe in what you say??? The best formula is to just walk off with a laugh and let them stare at your back wondering what your secret is.

Ok, now for my secret. As I have mentioned above, I did not maintain my hair. All I merely did was to wash my hair with shampoo and then with conditioner and let it dry off itself. That's all, nothing else. The brand of the shampoo I'm using is Pantene--extra moisturizing, and I have been using it for years and this will continue to be my number one shampoo brand.

However, I have also told some of my friends that I did use egg white on my hair (apply at the tip of your hair). But that was years ago, because the hair stylist cut my hair with a “blade like” knife!!! And actually this is not good for the hair because it spoils the quality of the hair and the protein will leak out from your hair. (I do not know how it leaks out, I just heard it from others). True enough, my hair became quite rough and there were so many spilt ends!! So I quickly went home and apply egg white, but now I no longer do that because I requested for a no “blade-like” tool on my hair.

As for my skin, I did nothing except the occasional hydro bath and facial (facial once in every 3 or 6 months). I do not believe in putting on make up, or dressing super nice and pretty because I still think natural beauty is the best. To my students, I did not put on make-up, so stop asking me if I did or if I like make-up. My cousins and friends used to tease me that I have got red cheeks, and asked how I get them; I replied mischievously that you just need to pinch your cheeks hard!!! HAHAHA

Also, I have to give the credits to my Daddy God, for he looks after each and every one of us, from your appearance all the way inside. But let me stress that God does not encourage us to go after only good looks!!!! No!!! Although I did not pray for a pretty set of hair or whatever, but He sure do blesses me with a nice beautiful hair (I'm not trying to praise myself, but I just quote it from those who praised me). Let me give you a great example of how my God helped me. I was supposed to be the Chinese emcee for a wedding event. And because I hate make-up, and I do not know how to apply make-up, I told my co-emcee that I'm not putting any make-up. However,it is strange if the emcee doesn't put on make-up, and you have to stand under the spotlight!!! So I prayed and entrusted this problem to God, and guess what? Even without make-up, my face is still glowing slightly and remained a pinkish red and not pale (my face is quite naughty at time, when you want it to be red, it will turn pale, and when you want it to be pale, it will turn red!!). As compared to those who spent so much money on their looks and hair, trying so hard to maintain them, I need not spend a single cent (except buying shampoo and conditioner), and the effect is as good as the former or even better than the former. So, actually my secret is also akin to no secret at all. Hehe.

Final note: do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry for itself. Do not worry about what you gonna wear or eat or do, for your Heavenly Father knows that you need them all. Seek first his kingdom and all these will be provided for you. This is quoted from the bible, but I paraphrased it because I'm rushing off to lecture soon!!!

There’s no God like mine

2007-08-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

This is one of the Christian songs that I love most and find it so true and pure.

There is one thing that I know for sure
That you love me more than I could ever know
You change my life, so I give you my all
You're worthy, cos you lay down your life
There's no substitute for your love
And I will sing to you always

There's no God like mine
He rules the earth
Let all creations sing His praise
King of all Kings
Most Holy one
And I forever shout your name

There's no God like mine
There's no God like mine
There's no God like mine
There's no God like mine

Angels stand in Holy wonder
For you alone are the lamb that was slain
Generations will bow and worship
The One who is and is to come
The Holy One

Normally we will hear phrases like Jesus Christ was the lamb that was being sacrificed. And many people are actually wondering why is Jesus being referred to as a lamb? (I used to be one of those who don't understand this also).

To cut the long story short, basically, a lamb is considered a gentle animal that cannot defend itself when it is in danger. Neither will it struggles when you try to kill it. And when Jesus died for our sins on the cross, He did it willingly and without complaints. He did not struggle, neither did he prayed to God to save his life. Actually, He could have prayed to God to bypass all these sufferings, He could easily summoned the Angels of God to come to his rescue, He could chose not to die for us, but instead, He accepted the will of God and He alone carried all the sins of everyone in the world and died for our sins in order that we may be forgiven and purified through the Son of God, Jesus Christ. And thus Jesus Christ's gentle and non-struggling nature led to the use of phrases like “Jesus Christ was the lamb that was being slain.”

Hi cher

2007-08-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

One of the things that I hate most while doing relief teaching was scolding the class, especially the lower sec, and then have to worry if they will hate you for it. I remembered last year I punished a group of guys and I thought they would hate me to the core, but apparently, no. They even came up to me and said “cher, next time come to my class, ok?” “cher, I got keep quiet lor, next time don't punish me leh.” “cher, got games?” “cher, must come back ok.”

There was this particular student who said “cher, actually I never talk lor, but you punished me.” My reply was “Excuse me, you did lor!!! And you were talking so loud lor!!” And that student actually laughed and said “ok lah”. So I replied “Next time don't talk so loud, ok?” And he replied “ok cher."

Another student said “We noisy, you scold, is correct. Because we are in the wrong mah.” HAHAHA. These kids obviously know that they are in the wrong, yet they continued to behave in that manner, but I have got to say that they are also very cooperative. When you asked them to lower down the volume, they sure did!!!

All these times I thought things would turn out quite bad every time I scolded them, but thank God for His miraculous wonders once again. He never fails to deliver and answers all the prayers of his believers. There's a group of Christian students who are not those types of ‘you would consider guai guai type’, but they are actually a bunch of polite and sincere students. At times, I was wondering why are they behaving like this if they are Christians, but recently my Christian friend's blog provided me the answer---I (God) am the potter and you (believers of Christ) are the clay. So that's it, if God plan it in this way, we can't change it because we are the clay. So, a lesson learnt and doubt cleared.

Oh, and there is this special class that I would like to mention. I went to their class last year for a few times, and this year, I went back again in august. I asked them if they still remember me, and the whole class burst out and said “Of course lah. We know you. You are the cher who gave us chocolates.” This reply was enough to make me stayed happy for the rest for the day. And although I may not go to their class often, but the fact that these kids still remember you make you feel that this world is just so full of warmth and love.

Are you Ms Yang or Ms Young?

2007-08-12T07:12:00.000-07:00

Ever since I went for relief teaching last year, I have often come across questions like, “cher, are you Ms Y o u n g? cher, how to spell your name? cher, are you Ms Young or Ms Yang?” And I will be LOL inside my heart---HAHAHAHAHA!!! You should just take a look at the faces of those students!!!! They are so naïve, so cute and so funny that you just can't stop laughing. However, as a teacher, I have to put on a straight face and so I replied “I'm Ms Yang.”

I remembered on one occasion one of the lower sec guys said “Ms Yang is forever Young.” And the girls would go “Ms Yang is really Young.” Again, I was LOL to myself. Although I'm not sure if they meant what they said, but they definitely do brighten up my day.

Actually, I have never given such serious thought about the differences between Yang and Young (I'm not referring to the meaning though) until I did relief teaching. The constant mixed up of “Ms Young and Ms Yang” was so irritating that it immediately sparked off a red light in my head. I'm not trying to say that I'm being pissed off by the students for mixing up my surname, but I'm rather pissed off by the Young Yang, Yang Young pronunciations—(sounds like a tongue twister isn't it?)

But recently I have come to realize that both Young and Yang can be used interchangeably when we want to refer to someone with the surname of Yang (I'm referring to people with the Chinese surname Yang only). It is because in America, where Chinese is not the main language, those American Chinese have to substitute their Chinese surnames with a similar pronunciation English word. And thus, the closest pronunciation to Yang (Chinese surname) is Young (English word).

Therefore, case closed. And I have to apologize to those students who were being corrected by me for misinterpreting my surname. :P Next time, you can either call me Ms Yang or Ms Young. However, it would be better if you all know me as Ms Yang.

Reasons for starting this blog

2007-08-12T07:06:00.000-07:00

First of all, I have to clarify that I am not an ardent fan of blogging. The fact that this blog exists is due to one of the modules that I'm taking this semester (Chinese for business and industry). And one of the professors actually taught me when I was in year 1, semester one. Hes such a nice and funny professor. Looking forward to attending his lectures again!!! J

Starting this blog was definitely a hassle, because I'm a computer idiot. But thank God for sending those wonderful colleague and friends to help me out with this blog. And it was He who provided me with the title of my blog---Shepherd of my Heart. (For non Christians, the Sheherd refers to Jesus Christ.) And since I'm stuck with this blog, I thought I might as well post something here, or post about how my God has helped me throughout all my life and in my walk with Him.

Although my blog may not be one of the most entertaining and classy blogs, but my intention was to finish the required assignment that I'm asked to do. I'm still in the midst of making a “proper blog”, so I apologize for the lousy setting and other things that you might dislike. Btw, if you happen to see me blog in Chinese, don't ask me why.